MY JOURNAL

Lets talk about sex, baby - Fiona Cutts & I discuss Sex Beyond Judgement

How did I get so lucky to have this cat in my life?
Ever since Vishnu & his sister, Laxmi, came to live with me, there was the possibility for something completely different.
When I met them, they were tiny and very, very scared.
They were born in a feral community, which is a super scary place for kittens. Kittens are in terror for their lives in places like that.
When I met them, the lady that looked after all the local cats looking for homes never thought she'd be able to home the tiny black kittens, because they were feral.
What she didn't know was I was aware they were coming to me for at least 2 years before. I just didn't know where I would find them.
And when they came to live with me, I was willing to be totally different with them.
I desired to receive them as they were. And it wasn't easy and it was weird. And there's lots I could say about what was different.
But now I have this amazing cat, Vishnu, in my life.
And he is magical beyond belief. And I would never have been able to receive a huge range of new energy - that's never been here on this planet before - without him.
And while we haven't yet created a home where we can both live in together....we get to be together as often as I can make it happen.
And today, we may be inviting you to something different....and only if the energy is there for that. If not, it may be a gentle invitation - a tickle - into some different magic and space.
I'm here with Vishnu today. And today is the day I go on 'Inspired Network Choices' radio with magical Elfy Jo, who is another magical being, willing to be whatever delicious magic shows up to talk about 'The Magnificence of You' and Galactic Heritage Readings!

And we're going to follow the magic together and, if Vishnu catches the wind, he may add his magic too. And if that happens....all bets are off. It could be even more unusual than any of us know is possible so far.
I wonder....what's possible?

What do you do when you've just come out of the shower and you realise you could take another bin down - you can hear the dustcart!
And your bladder's a bit full with that litre and a bit of watermelon, pineapple and rosewater smoothie you just had!
You could ask, "What's possible?".
That's what I did!
And here's what happened:
I asked, "What's next?".
Body asks to release said smoothie.
Done!
Body then suggests putting on some clothes.
And I ask what it would like to wear, as the drawers and cupboards open.
And next - shoes and socks.
Can I still hear the dustcart? What's possible?
Oh, yes!
"Never give up! Never give in! And never quit!"
What's getting created?
So what, if I get down there and the cart's gone!
I can put the wheelie-bin back.
Get bin bag!
Go down the stairs, asking some fun questions...."What energy, space & consciousness can my body & I be to be the energy of having and accumulating money with ease?"
Nice!
Get outside. Stop.
Can I hear the cart?
Did it go around the corner?
Yes!
Make towards the corner....and the sweet kitten from across the road trots towards me to say, "Hello!".
We exchange salutations.
I head for the corner and builders are singing loudly along to "That thing!", by Lauryn Hill.
Fantastic! They're enjoying themselves so much in this cold, windy & dull looking day!
I follow the sound of the cart.
Around another corner. This is more fun than I expected.
There it is! The cart.
I am smiling broadly that I chose this.
Approach cart and the man, putting the wheelie bins onto the back.
Big smiles!
Exchange jokes about whether I've got money in my bin.
"What would it be like to have so much money, putting it in the bin was nothing?"
He's beaming!!! Chuckling.
And I turn and return home with a great big smile on my face.
How does it get better than this?
I get back, still drizzly, and all the bins are out.
And I ask what would it create to put everybody's bins back?
And so I do! I put them all back in the bin store-room and put them neatly in their places in order.
And I feel great.
I wasn't expecting any of that.
I wonder what else I think may be a pain to do, that could be a delight?

There are a lot of lies around abuse.
They may not be what you think I might say.
When you've been exposed to abusive events as a baby, how would you have words for that?
We're encouraged to speak our story, so we can have clarity. And yet, how would we do that when we may have been present as small children - present with events that may have been 'out of our control' and that may have consumed us with their nastiness and horror when we couldn't reach doorhandles or walk out of a house or get to people we felt safe with?
These events may have been extreme or subtle.
And then you may have witnessed the normalisation of said events and a settling down into 'normalcy' also when you were without words and the capacity to find sane sanctums.
You may have witnessed the abuser being defended by someone else even - including those who know nothing about what happened. You may have seen things like this being ignored - even in plain daylight with dozens of people looking on and doing nothing.
You may see people complicit in abusive situations - even defend abusers in a court of law, when they know nothing about what happens when everyone else is gone.
But you know you.
There are some that also know you.
At some level we all know each other and truly we are not separate.
What happens to one of us, happens to all of us.
When we give space to ourselves to bear witness to what happened, it may help.
When we make space to see who we truly be - the vast magnificence and the glory of being - we know that nothing can harm us.
We are indestructible and fierce. We are gloriously vulnerable and yielding. We are potent and kind. We can play with the molecules of the entire universe.
And having that as a reality in our lives may take making some changes.
Why someone chooses to abuse another is an understandable preoccupation, yet it may never bear fruit.
Paying attention to the glory and beauty of you, however, now that is totally worth the space and kindness!
There are mechanisms to keeping ourselves in doubt.
When we withdraw our agreement to having that doubt for ourselves, things can change. And this is a distinct possibility for all of us.
I see a world where unkind people have created victims of potent beings.
Because they could.
Let's rise up out of doubt and be the phenomenal beings we truly be!
I am proud to say that my body and I have amazing capacities with creating much greater ease for people with coming out of the lies of abuse. And people that have received them have looked at me with faces beyond description that demonstrated so much.
Rather like the words above that only scratch the surface of this story that becomes the glory of unimpeded beauty, when you get to knowing the truth of you - that magnificent beauty of you!
I'm not altogether comfortable to write like this and yet what I see around me - the beautiful beings that are stuck in the loop that abuse can create - and the change that I know is possible - I'll shout it from the rooftops, if it means that someone amazing that has bought the lies of abuse can be freer or even completely free!
The truth is that you are glorious beyond words.
The truth is you know that.
No matter how many beings have forced you to demonstrate that wasn't true.
That doesn't stop the truth being.
You are glorious in your beauty.
You are magnificent.
And we delight in you.
What will it take for you to fully delight in you?

Body Love with Delany Delaney!

A tall and majestic being of other-wordly dimensions has bravely come in for a few minutes out of curiosity.
I'm getting he's curious about why we choose to live like this.
He steps in and he's looking about only for a few minutes.
And I get he's brave. He's a kind of being that's not so easily understood. It's a brave thing of him to come inside. His kind has been hounded for aeons. And I give him the space to take the peek he is looking for and leave when he likes.
Naturally, I check to see, if I am loosing the plot and it appears I have all my marbles with me.
And I'm not doubting the magnificence of his mighty presence.
I am grateful and humbled that he should choose to come inside and thereby share some of his brand of magic with me. He's a mysterious kind. And he is beyond beautiful!
Thank you for coming and responding to my questions!
I was aware of your kind only yesterday and you so kindly chose to say some kind of, "Hello!", so soon!
What are all the places I've been keeping to the hidden places, that I can allow to unfurl now?
And what about you?
Is now the time?

This was as a Q & A session - with a very special guest, Cath Hunter.
Thank you, Cath for joining me!
I know you know a lot more and maybe we'll get to chat again sometime!

Have you recognised your capacities with telepathy? Wherever you are with that possibility, Glen Sheppard and Delany Delaney are inviting you to so much more with classes they have created. This is the film, Beyond Words, that Delany was speaking about. It's beautiful!!

The authors of 'The Lightness of Choosing you' join together online for a 'virtual' book launch